Remember

Your friends. Don't forget the ones that you used to have and don't neglect your currrent ones, like I do occasionally. Rememeber the good and the bad times. Reconnect with old friends and make new ones. I think people forget how important those people are in your life until you don't get to see them anymore. Part of me needs this upcoming change in my life - I need new people, badly. I want to open my eyes and to forget some of the hurt that occured time and time again during high school. The hurt that made me want to rip my heart out because I was tired of crying and tired of feeling so much, like I always do. But instead, I endured, and I'm so glad I did. And while I am letting some people go because they are not worth the drama or the pain that they caused and will continue to inflict, but there are others that are worth it. Because what's worth the prize is always worth the fight, and it was. And I need this change. I need to re-find the motivation and determination that I've somewhat lost over the last year or so in high school. I have been at my most unfocused because I've been weary. All the drama, all the stuff with friends and teachers and family. It's just been so much and it's finally over. And now that I've had breathing room, it's time to get up again. Even if my family can't communicate in anything other than screams and yells right now. Even if I really want to get out of the house on a daily basis but can't, because no one is around. I need to make myself be around. I need to prioritize. I can do this, even if there are some things that I will continuously fail at. Because I am human.