Neglect

I've neglected my blog for awhile. I need to get back on track before the year starts again, throwing its many obstacles. I feel so overwhelmed, and sometimes I don't know what to do. Sometimes I can't remember who I'm supposed to lean on. People I thought I loved lashing out, people I don't even know are accepting me with open arms. I'm repulsed and drawn to people at random and it's a bit disconcerting. I have no clue how this is going to turn out during the year. I've neglected friends who I still love and it bothers me that I've been so terrible. And there are people who I cut out because I couldn't deal with them anymore that have popped back up, all aggression and faulting. What to do, what to do. The dilemma is frightening.