Sunshine ramblings

It's really uplifting, isn't it? The warmth on your face. That's why I love staying up late - I wake up in sunshine. I love sunshine and sunflowers, and I miss Hawai'i like crazy. I miss the sand between my toes and the ocean out my back door. The sensation of never being too far from home. From my namesake. Living in a house, in a home, may not seem like a big deal to many people, but it's something that I've never had, that I've always craved. To have a place that you know is yours. I don't have anything like that. I can decorate the walls all I want and leave as many clothes on the floor as possible, but none of it actually belongs there. I've always lived in apartments. Everything is rented. Jonathan Larson had it right when he said "Everything is rent." There are very few things that actually belong to you. Objects are fleeting. And even people in love don't 'belong' to each other. They are an individual person in their own right. And they deserve to be free of bonds, except for the ones they put on willingly. That's why marriage is fascinating.