Disconnection

Connections aren't just lost, sometimes they can be severed or just broken from wear and tear and tugging. But it seems I can't communicate with anybody anymore. Some of it is my fault, some of it isn't. But seems like no one can hear me and no one even tries, and it gets painful. It gets hard for me to keep trying to be heard or to keep trying to be understood when it doesn't even get through. It's like constantly running into brick walls. It gets to the point where I've just gotta keep everything inside cause if I don't I'm just going to be upset and dissapointed and angry all over again. Operator, Operator... I'm dialing in and all I'm getting is silence. How can I speak your language? Help me understand, I've tried to tell you. I've tried to tell you all what I need and how I need it done. And as much as I'd like to help you understand what's going on with me, I need you to have an open mind and an open heart. Because I don't have the confidence to tell you how I feel without fear of retribution. When I tell you the inner workings of my mind... I'm really exposing myself. I'm revealing a large part of me and it is far too delicate to have thrown back at me. I can't handle it. I really can't.